Punch Your Cake Hole

Blah. Just, blah. As much as I wish what others were thinking, I’m glad I’m not a mind reader. I’m pretty sure hearing others’ thoughts would just severely piss me off.

breannajai:

Big things that make you crazy mad and sad all at the same time. I’m so glad it’s friday. I want a weekend.

I want my friends and my family even more though… I guess I’m a little homesick.

I’m homesick for you <3

Apparently I only have one emotion: Anger. When I’m sad it’s, “why are you mad?”  When I’m sick, “What are you mad about?”   When I’m too tired to do anything, “Why are you so pissed?”

Fuck you. I have more than one emotion. Name the last time I actually got mad at you for something. Go hide in your room and I’ll stay in mine. I don’t care anymore. And now I am mad. Congratu-fucking-lations.

I miss so many things in my life lately.

I wish I could describe how much I miss you. Honestly, sometimes I cry when I’m a little down and I’m talking to you, but I can’t hug you. And rightfully so.

Also, I was so excited and touched when you asked me to be a bridesmaid for your wedding. It means a lot to me that you want me to be a part of something so special for you.

I love you.

I know nap time is every half our for about twenty minutes, but please let me watch TV while your dad is working on his car.

I know you can sleep through it, you’re just being finicky.

(Yes I am that person who refers to the owner as “Mom” or “Dad”)

You’re in your room, 

I’m in mine.

There is no warmth here.

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You are the driver,

I am the passenger,

We smile but it still feels cold.

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We lie down for the night,

You wrap your arms around me and hold me tight.

Yet still, no warmth is found.

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We drift,

We lie,

We keep cold for the rest of our lives.

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It’s over,

I’ve moved from this life to the next,

I feel no warmth, or cold.